I have a problem I would like to discuss with you. You see I have another blog here at blogger who is password protected but lately my readers can't see the page as they should and I can't see it either. WHY is that? Anybody who is experiencing the same problem? This is very frustrating and I would really appreciate your help.
I had Anneli over for some tea this afternoon and she brought these lovely babies - sweet raspberry cupcakes with sparkly diamonds on top. These might just be the most delicious cupcakes I've ever tasted! She left me the whole box too, my gosh! Thanks Anneli!
I feel split today, almost like my cup in the last post. I feel lost somehow, like I am floating on an endless sea trying to find my way home. The waves rocking me back and forth, I feel the seagrass stroking at my feet as I swim. I shall try not so sink.
Oh my gosh! I got such a lovely package yesterday, all the way from Paulden Arizona. I jumped with joy as i went to the postal office to collect it and I jumped all the way home! This made made day extra bright, THANK YOUCarrie! God bless you!
I wish I could be out there with you, feeling your nearness, watching while you ponder around in that basement of yours stirring the fireplace carefully controlling each paper before you toss them into the fire, letting me walk around in the heat with you, barefooted and in love.
I am a day early with this post but I couldn't help myself! I have joined Carrie's hunt and this weeks subject is favourite food so I just HAD to post a pic of my lovely chicken salad. You buy some grilled chicken and slice it to small pieces, chop some salad and mix with feta, olives, yellow peppers, tomatoes and cucumber. Sometimes I add some sliced avocado too! Try it! I sometimes drizzle some olive oil on top too..
I love many things when it comes to food, espacially meat from moose. You know moose is a rather funny animal but they taste great! Maybe I should cook some typical moose-dish sometime and show to you, would you like that?
When I don't eat moose or chicken salad, I like to make a thick pancake in the oven and fill it with some fried pork. I eat lingonberries with that by the way. It's delicious!
Does chocolate count when it comes to food? Don't think so but that I LOVE! White chocolate, dark chocolate, chocolate with milk, truffels, yeah you name it :)
It has been a rough day dear friends. I visited this awful place today and wanted you all to see what it looked like. The classrooms were almost as we left them 12 years ago, our benches were still there, some were full with papers, our papers, old schoolbooks laid everywhere, our old drawings still decorated the wall. Drawings that said: "show each other respect", "be kind", "a no is always a no" and so forth.
I trembeled as I stepped inside my old classroom at the top floor, the room even smelled the same. I sat down at my old bench by the window and cried. I had a friend with me and she held her arms around me telling me to be strong. It wasn't easy, the whole house was filled with memories and every inch of me felt soar.
I visited each and every room but the classroom I have shared with you(the top photo) were the hardest.
I have made an important decision today. I have decided to face some old demons that have been bothering me since the age of 7.
The village I live in is very small and when I was a child we had a working school here, unfortunately that school is closed today and its corridors are empty. I have not been in this house since the age of 12 and after the story that I am gonna tell now, you probably wouldn't blame me.
The children were mean there and the adults too. I was bullied from the age of 7 to 12 in that very school, on that very place, in the house of evil.
I was small and didn't say much, I often sat quiet in a corner and I was far too kind. People took advantage of that you see, they used me. The children called me ugly and useless and sometimes they even hit me with sticks on their lunchbreaks, screaming how worthless I was and how much they hated me. For SIX damn years this went on. The teacher's didn't give a rat's ass, they pretended like they didn't see. This destroyed me.
I can't begin to tell you how much this had destroyed me and some of the things that went on there dare I not even write about.
I promised myself to NEVER put one foot in that house again after they closed the school and I never have. BUT today I contacted the person that owns the key to this house and decided to face these old demons. I shall stand face to face with this house and not faulter. I must to this, I must go there to get closure.
I am afraid of what I am going to feel as I walk up the stairs to our old classroom, seeing those big old windows that I had looked out of so many times in the past, praying for rescue. I am terrified.
Anybody out there who are interested in getting their portrait taken? You can pick any type of style you want, black and white, color etc. Remember I do this just for fun and for the love of photography and am NOT educated in this area!
I take 100.00 SEK for one session and this includes at least 10 photos. You later decide which ones you want and you get them same day via email.