Oh Yogi

I wish for this, yogi tea! As far I know we do not have this wonderful creation in my corner of the world. I have read about it and since I am huge tea-lover I so wish to try it!

Is this tea really as lovely as they say? I believe it is!!

I do

I think of you, I long, I crave, I yearn...

My soul is on fire.

Something swedish

This is a tough one folks! It is a delicious dessert we have here in sweden and is filled with an almond type of paste and whipped cream. What is your guess?!!

Hello sun!

We have a sunny day here in sweden on this thursday! At last it has found its way back, we have had a bunch cloudy boring days the in last couple of weeks. Hope the weather is good at your place too, if not, here comes some sunny photos from my corner of the world!

God bless!

In hiding

Peek a boo dear cat! She is so sick of me always photographing, poor thing ;)

Honestly now

Honestly, what do you think about these shoes? They belong to my friend and I'm thinking about getting a pair just like that..

I had just HAD tro try them on since I am a sucker for shoes!

Feathers and down

It has been a rough day folks. I am crawling in the dark, scratching my legs each time I try to move. The black dust is everywhere - the dust of sorrow.

Happy accidents

Eh.. I don't really know what happened here, but my camera must have gone completely wild and created these little accidents! Charming in a way :)

Beauty

I took a portrait today of my close friend Anneli.

It's never hard to take portraits when you can work this amount of beauty. Her eyes dark and mysterious and the contours of here face exceptional. She is one of the most beautiful women I know and truly belongs in front of the lens.

I like this one especially, the way her eyes kind of lures you inside of the picture to explore.

Complete beauty, this kind of photos make this photographing interest of mine completely worthwhile.

Shine

You shine just like this.

London rain

I have had the most relaxing afternoon today while drinking tea with a friend. It felt just like old times. How I love these moments, when everything around just seems to stop while you enjoy each other company.

These beautiful flowers belong to this dear friend and are bought in London. Lovely aren't they?
How I long for England, the red big dubbledeckers, fish & chips and the soft cool london rain.

Hey bud!

Aaaaah tulips! How I have longed for these beauties! Now they sit in a gorgeous glass vase on my kitchen table.

This has been a very long day for me, or so it feels. Iv'e been running about like a crazy middleaged chicken here all day, washing, cooking, shoveling snow, cleaning the refrigerator. I am tired now and it actually feels like I have earned some rest so... rest it is!

Try it, it's good for you!

Red quinoa, cucumber, black beans, red peppers and italian sausage - my favourite!

Come on in

Just turn the key and walk straight in, I'm waiting..

Blue saturday

I am feeling blue today, some people just don't understand. A no is a no, that's it! When I say no I mean NO.

People act strange from time to time, especially men.

Silent

Silent beauty.

Learning

I am SO sorry for the lack of photos lately but I am spending my days learning my new camera. It is a Canon eos 1000d and is my most advanced so far. It took me 5 hours just to figure out how to charge the battery so have mercy, would you ;)

Tomorrow, if I have figured out how to switch in on by then, I will do some capturing!

Anyone who has a canon of this very type and can give me some useful advice?

Lovely portrait

Little mystica playing, totally unaware of my camera.. she is probably dreaming about a good piece of cheese as we speak..

I love this cat :-)

Thanks!

Thank you everybody for commenting me and my mothers encounter.

Last night as I went to bed I felt worried, almost frightened that she would come and yell at me for stopping and destroying her beautiful fasad. Her friends does not know I exist and god forbid they ever should. I feel like telling them all and poking a hole in my mothers bubble that she has created for herself thorughout the years. Her bubble of lies and complete makebelieve.

I believe that she would have reacted diffrently if her husband hadn't been there, maybe she would have embraced me after all. A part of me thinks so. I felt like saying: " I miss you mom" but I didn't have the courage, scared to death of what her response would have been. I don't know her and she does not know me, but I miss having a mother.

I wonder if she thinks of yesterdays meeting just like I am doing now, if she too spent last night sleepless, sitting by the window regretting her mistakes.

Delicate

I love details such as these, a small ribbon of lace or a flower spun by the softest of silk.

I met mom

Something breathtaking happened to me today, an oppurtunity showed up that I have been waiting for, for years.

Me and a friend were strolling around the supermarket in a nearby town when I suddenly spot my mother two iles down. You all know who I feel about her and what she has done to me, her lack of love and cold black eyes. I had not seen her for about 6 years I think but she looked the same; thin, curly hair, glasses, sparkling jeans. At first I froze, grabbed my friend by the arm and said: "mom is here", "mom is here". I hid behind one of the shelfs, I didn't feel ready to face her. The fear I felt at that point made me tremble.

And then It came to me: WHY should I hide? I have been hiding out of fear for the last 20 years, fearing that the sight of her would cause a complete breakdown. I have NOT done anything wrong, she left me not the opposite.

I decided to face her and meet this lifelong fear of mine. I walked up to her and when she saw me she froze. At first I thought she would walk away but she had nowhere to hide. She saw who I was, I didn't think she would but I was wrong. "Hi", she said with her eyes on everything but my own. "Hi, mom", I replied.

I saw panic in her eyes, fear, despair. There I was, looking straight at her, waiting for kind word or at least a hug. Nothing came, just silence.

Her husband was also quiet, not a word, his eyes was filled with hate, like I had ruined everything just by running in to them.

I left them standing there, with their eyes big as canonballs. I was the last person they ever thought they would run in to but how wrong they were. God was on my side today.

They have ignored my existence for so long, moved on with their lives, put three new children to the world as if to forget all about me but I have not forgotten.

I hope she saw the disapointment in my eyes, and how she has failed completely when it comes to motherhood. I hope she saw my pain, the pain SHE has caused. I hope she felt it, every unse of it too.

HOPE

I like the colors in this shot, the way the darkness almost completely blend in to the soft white.

When I took this photo I wanted it to stand for HOPE, for new beginnings and sunny days. What does this picture make YOU feel? :) Hope it's all good!

Award for friends!

I got such a lovely friend award from Ann today. THANK YOU for this Ann, it was a real joyboost!

The following explanatory paragraph is to be included when you post about this award, so remember that, recipients!

"The Friends Award isn't about being the most popular blogger or having the most read blog. It is just because you are a friend." Here is the cleverly written text of the award: "These blogs are exceedingly charming. These kind bloggers aim to find and be friends. They are not interested in self-aggrandizement. Our hope is that when the ribbon of these prizes are cut, even more friendships are propagated. Please give more attention to these writers. Deliver this award to eight more and include this cleverly-written text into the body of their award."

Friendship is really important and I have made so many new friends here through blogger. You feel like my family and I care for you all!

It's never easy to give this kind of an award on but I have chosen as follows:

Claire

Pearl

Omami

Faith

Carrie

PJ

Georgia

Anneli

Scarlet wood

The wood lies scarred, in the back of my garage. I like though, it's swirly shape and torn features. Hope you like it too!

Cheers!

Food or dessert?

What do think this is? You can eat it... ;)

Drip drop

A raspberry splash. Do you like it? =)

Garlic portraits

I am very fond of this little lovely onion. The taste, the colors, the lines - pure beauty.

What do you think?

A cat with a hat

These past couple of days have been rough and my soul has felt completely dried out, thereof my lack of posts.

I seek beauty to capture but I find none. I long for simplicity, for fine lines and beautiful shapes but my world seems empty.

Lonliness echo inside of me and I roam my house like a restless spirit, searching for peace.

Tonight I went to se a friend and got cheered up a bit by her cat, she liked my hat.. :) hey that rhymed.. Hope you all have had a good day!

Please God

Dear God, please save me from this misery.

I need your help now, I really do. Please hear this prayer.

It is found!!

Thanks to Mrs Kronis the poem I was asking about was found. THANK YOU from the bottom of my being, If you only knew how these words have shaped my life. I have lived by them in my younger years till one morning when they were forgotten. Never again shall I leave this bundle of words behind.

Midnight

The stars are as soft as flowers, and as near
the hills are webs of shadow, softly spun
no seperate leaf or single blade is here
- all blend to one

No moonbeam cuts the air; a sapphire light
rolls lazily and slips again to rest
there is no edged thing in all this night,
safe in my breast.

- Dorothy Parker

I need your help

Dear friends, I am in the search of a poem that I have heard several years ago. It starts: the hills are webs of shadows softly spun..

Does anybody know who the writer is? You see I woke up with this line echoing in my head last night and something told me I just had to find it.

If you know where I can find this and who the writer is, please let me know. Thank you.

Shadowplay

I watch the shadows dance as
the sun softly rises on the
back of my curtain

like an untouched piece
of canvas being dotted
with paint for the
very first time
they move

silent and careful
watching each step
wanting not to
disturb the dawning
of this new day

The best of people

This lovely picture is of my grandmother and grandfather. I found it in an old box along with some curtains in her basament today. She was 23 and he 26 on that day, their wedding day. I cried with tears of joy when I unwrapped this painting from it's layers of soft pink paper and carried it upstairs to show her. It's a timeless treasure and I shall keep it always.

She was so beautiful here and so was he, so young and so in love. These are my absolute favourite people in my life and although my grandfather is pasted away he still is. He suffered from Parkinson's disease for many years and eventually his eyes lost their shimmer and he left us. This was about three years ago. He lives although, as you know deep inside of me. His kindness and love warms my soul everyday.

My grandmother are alive and well at the age of 72 and she still is stunningly beautiful!

Grandpa, if you're upstairs listening: I LOVE and miss you! And grandma: you are the light of my life, my best friend and the rock of my life. You have made me who I am today and I love you dearly.

Soil

I shall go out today with you on my mind, passed that old barn and down to the lake. There I shall sit for a while, listnening to the ice and how it cracks each time the earth moves.

I know you're out here somewhere.

This is for everyone who's hurting in Gaza

May God be with you.

We are all hurting sometimes, but there are people out there in the world who's hurting more. Let's try and remember that, shall we and let's pray for peace.

Tick tack

Time - it slipps through my fingers like sand through an hourglass. Minutes ticking away, pulling me further and further away from life as I know it. Time - I have far to little.

Stare

Tell me dear friends, what to this very photo trigger inside of you? Is it good or bad? Tell me!

It's taken behind my old school on a cold, foggy december night. The windows stared back at me with their dark invisible eyes, or so it seemed.

You're back

Memories awoke today, days of a time gone by. I still remember your kindness and our talks but somehow we lost track of each other. That is very common you know so don't feel bad about it, I don't.

Lifes change, people change, we changed. I grew one way and you the other. Our friendship faded with the wind and after sometime you weren't there anymore, in the back of my mind like you used to. You were gone and all that existed was a gentle mist, fragments of dinners and talks we had shared years before.

When I saw you today, you appeared the same, like nothing had changed. I saw that familar light and your voice hummed just like I remembered it. You had been there all along obviously, and maybe I had too, perhaps without even knowing it.

Welcome back, dear friend.

A lesson in words!

I'd like to share with you this swedish speciality and one of my all time favourites. It's like a vanilla butter almost and it tastes delicious. We call it Messmör, haha..this word probably sounds funny to you americans but we have a lot of funny words over here believe me!

Sometimes for breakfast I put this on top of my sandwich together with some cheese.. it is soo good!

A place with a view

Today I have been out photographing with lovely Anneli! We went out to a nearby bridge and captured some beautiful shots of the pink afternoon sky and the open waters. Later we went to her place for some afternoon tea, canned pineapple with some vanilla and honey yoghurt. Lovely it was!

What have you guys been up to today? Sleeping? Our timezones are so different so I wouldn't be suprised if you HAD been snoaring away beneath your covers!

Parking strictly forbidden!!

This sign means that no parking what so ever are aloud in this area! I parked here anyway though since it was nighttime and my car is of a very dark color, black in fact.. I thought it would blend in with the darkness and no one would see it but things didn't really work out... I wouldn't tell anyone if I were you ;)

Rave

Party lights!